This was never meant to be a book. Stand Fast in the Valley is Nicole Ryan's unfiltered private journals - a brutally honest memoir of a toxic relationship, spiritual deconstruction, and the long road back to self. If you've ever felt alone in a relationship that looked fine from the outside, if you've searched for God outside of religion, or if you've wondered if your actual, messy thoughts would ever be understood - this book is for you. Inside you will find:

• Raw journal entries from the cycle of idealization, devaluation, and survival
• An inside look at narcissistic and sociopathic relationship patterns as they unfold
• A spiritual journey through chaos, doubt, and finding meaning outside organized religion
• A directive for anyone looking for a way out of a toxic relationship

For those who are ready to stand fast in their own valley.